A Love Story Is So Much Bigger Than Just One Person

What if you were always meant to have more than one soulmate?

Photo by Marcia Fernandes from Pexels

I recently — like, very recently — told a girl I had feelings for her. I don’t know her in person, so I sent her a message. A message I rewrote and edited and obsessed over like it was another one of my articles. My hands were shaking, my leg was bouncing (but then again, my leg is always bouncing), and before I could chicken out, I sent it.

Here’s the thing — I was already expecting rejection because she’s straight. I know what you’re thinking. “What the hell were you doing crushing on a straight girl? ”

One, she’s great. Two, humans can’t control their emotions. It’s not like I chose to have these feelings. I just woke up one day and realized she was the first thing on my mind every friggin’ morning.

I told her how I felt, and she, of course, told me she didn’t feel the same way. (Kindly, might I add. Didn’t I say she was great?)

I wasn’t expecting my heart to break the way it did. A friend of mine recently told me that I have a tendency to belittle and invalidate my feelings, so I’ll be honest: it hurt. Even though I expected it, there was that tiny bit of hope, and so when that hope dimmed, all I could do was lay in bed and do nothing. (It was all…