I didn’t love writing when I started writing. It was merely a way to provide valuable content in my blog since, at that point, I was too shy to upload videos or make a podcast.
When I ran that blog, I didn’t truly run it. I did what I had to, but I never put in the effort to go the extra mile. I wrote the blog posts — very badly, might I add — made the lead magnet, and posted on social media now and then.
Most of the time, I spent my days watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Lost Girl. I never wanted to work.
I used to believe it was because I was an unmotivated, lazy as fuck, fresh-out-of-high-school eighteen-year-old. I would feel worse when I saw other teenagers building successful brands, working with influencers, and hustling.
I couldn’t figure out the difference between me and them. Why were they working their asses off while I was laying in bed for most of my day? I thought I had drive.
I’m much older and wiser now (okay, fine — I’m four years older and a little smarter) so, I know now that I wasn’t lazy.
I just didn’t like blogging.
I ran a blog for about three years, and the entire time, I fooled myself into thinking I was passionate about it. In reality, I was afraid of who I’d be without a blog because without it, I was nothing.
Those were some very dramatic thoughts. When you have the Internet and a million opportunities staring you in the face, you don’t have “nothing.”
Somewhere along the line of writing because I had to, I started writing because I wanted to. Now, I’m here writing on Medium for not that much money but finding every part of the journey worth it.
I went from waking up at ten every day to getting up at seven and having two articles complete by ten.
Rather than spending hours watching Netflix shows, I spend them writing, editing, reading submissions to my publication, and more.
If you know you could be working harder, if you wish you were hustling, if you’re wondering why you won’t get the fuck off Hulu even though you’re doing what you love, it’s likely you’re not actually doing what you love.
Perhaps you’re like me, and you’ve fooled yourself into thinking you’re passionate about what you do because you’re afraid to do something else.
Maybe you’re a writer, but deep down, you want to be a dancer. However, since you’ve been writing for three years, you feel as though you have to continue on this path.
That, of course, is untrue. You don’t have to do anything you don’t like, and you sure as hell don’t have to continue working a career you dislike.
If you are not doing what you love, you are wasting your time. — Billy Joel
You could literally decide you’re going to stop writing today and go to the dance studio you drive by every day to sign up for lessons.
You can change your entire life in an instant.
If you feel guilty because you’re not working hard, it’s not because you’re lazy. You don’t have a fire for what you do, and if you don’t care about your job, you won’t give it everything you’ve got.
My sisters and I run a sticker shop on Etsy. We started it because we love laptop stickers, we knew we could come up with some cute ideas, and mostly, we wanted to make money.
However, we suck at running it. Is it because we’re lazy? Nope. It’s because none of us actually have a passion for it.
My job is to write the copy, whether it’s for Etsy descriptions or Instagram posts. I dislike writing copy, so I procrastinate doing both.
I’m not going to prioritize something I don’t like. I’d much rather get back to writing an article or doing something for Medium.
Sometimes, you think you like your job because, hey, at least you work on it. You’re not happy, but you’re not miserable either, so that’s okay. However, as I said earlier, you’re probably not going the extra mile for it.
I never did for my blog. I tried guest posting, but rarely. I only published one post per week — sometimes twice per month. I didn’t really work to improve my writing either. I worked on what I had to.
When I started writing on Medium, I changed. That lazy girl I was disappeared, and suddenly, I was writing an article every day, I started a publication, and now I run a Facebook group for the womxn of Medium.
In the (almost) six months I’ve been on here, I’ve published 208 articles.
I didn’t wake up one day, filled with energy and the need to hustle out of nowhere. I found something I loved to do — it’d just taken a different platform to bring that love for writing to light.
Since I adore writing, I have goals and visions, and I work hard because I want to see them become realities.
Success is when you see something, and you say, ‘I want to do that,’ and then you do it. It’s being happy with what you do and doing what you love every day. — Alessia Cara
If you don’t have big plans, or if you do but deep down you don’t want to work for them, ask yourself what the hell you’re doing working that job in the first place.
You’re not a lazy person. Your drive, motivation, and will to work hard is in there. It’s not coming through because you don’t like what you do.
(If you do like your job, and you’re being lazy, you probably have another issue.)
Find what you love — or if you already know what it is, start working toward it, and you’ll be surprised to find yourself working early or staying up later than usual to get shit done.
You’ll be shocked to find yourself forgetting to catch up with shows, working more than three hours a day, and taking risks you otherwise would’ve never taken.
When you do what you’re passionate about, the work is worth it. You’re willing to do what it takes.
If you don’t find yourself in that position, it’s time to reevaluate your life and what you do for a living. Remember, you can change your life whenever the fuck you want.